yes, i may be great at preventing carys from exiting dramatically, but i don't understand myself. at ALL.
i need some insight and for this, i turn to you.
around four years ago, i realised i was ready to leave hong kong. i was not homesick, i was not any less in love with hong kong, but my wanderlust had kicked in. i was ready for new sights, smells, horizons, running paths and experiences for the family.
charles was quite definite he didn't want to move back to canada. it wasn't until we had a very close shave moving to the US that we realised that we didn't know if we were ready for silicon valley. we knew we didn't have enough money, that was certain!
so for the past four years, i have stayed in hong kong. charles has changed jobs, i know we are here for...a while. my children are very happy here. and i am taking care of the wanderlust in my own ways. the night hiking, the travelling alone or with a girlfriend in china, the wandering alone in streets in sheung wan and sai ying pun, i can always find something new, even in a city i have known since 1997.
and i love pokfulam. our community.
though i know if charles got a job elsewhere, i could leave tomorrow.
so i am ready to leave hong kong. i know this.
yet, apparently i am not ready to leave pokfulam for another location in Hong Kong.
Could someone please explain this to me?
For the past few years, charles has been pressuring us to move to the Sai Kung clearwater bay area. if we moved to this area, we would have a garden, a three story 2100 square foot home, a roof terrace and I have resisted. Excellent reasons all. the kids are happy where they are, they don't want to change schools. the bus system isn't so reliable. i might be isolated.
it would be a fantastic house. space. fresher air. for half the price of what it costs to buy a flat here that is half the size and has no view.
WHY AM I SO UNWILLING to leave my community but i am willing to leave the country?