there is so much to be done, but here is a short note from vancouver.
what a beautiful city.
it has been a tough few days. the memorial service was today, and it was lovely. just family, each of us given the opportunity to speak if we so wished.
i wasn't planning on speaking. at memorials/funerals people often make the mistake of personalising speeches, making it all about them instead of the deceased. there was nothing i could say about my grandad that the others there didn't know.
however, when the opportunity to speak came, i had something to say. not how sad i was that he has died, because really, i think he was ready for death. he had been so unhappy once his body started to betray him. this was a man who swam daily until he was 87 years old. sitting in a nursing home he disliked, away from the wife he adored, this wasn't a life he wanted.
but i decided to speak anyway. because no one so far had mentioned a point i consider to be crucial: as long as we remember the deceased, they are still with us.
i have three siblings and four cousins. when we're together, when grandad comes into the conversations, his memory is alive. towards the end of his life, grandad was tired of living. but i know he would like if we were sharing our grandad stories.
Tess, that's a very beautiful point. I am so sorry to hear about his passing, but there's a part of him in you and your children, that's the magic and the beauty of it all. You are so close, in Vancouver. I wish I could escape for the day and give you a big hug. It sounds like the memorial was very special and intimate. Thanks for sharing your thoughts - it means alot. Love Jillxxoo
Posted by: Jill | April 18, 2005 at 09:47 AM
We were so close, I live an hour out of Vancouver... Sounds like a moving celebration of his life. Good for you for making the long journey to be there and be a part of it.
Posted by: maia | April 18, 2005 at 11:00 AM
We were so close, too. I live in downtown Vancouver.
It sounds like a lovely service, Tess. I'm sure your grandad would be proud.
Posted by: Devon | April 18, 2005 at 11:21 AM
Beautiful. Well put.
Posted by: Maggaggie | April 19, 2005 at 01:36 AM
"as long as we remember the deceased, they are still with us"
My brother said this exact same thing at our dad's memorial service. Now, when we get together (my brothers and their families live 1500 miles from me), at least one statement will be prefaced by "As the old man used to say..."
We definitely remember him fondly as you (and your family) will/do remember your granddad.
Posted by: sheilah | April 19, 2005 at 06:35 AM