december, full swing full stop

i do love december. there are a lot of fun things happening this month.

admittedly, my four little kennedy stars, though thrilled to see mummy wading in the front door surrounded by bags, are less thrilled when mummy turns round and heads out the door later on that night.

every night around dinner time sebastian will ask in a plaintive tone, "are you going out tonight mummy?" and i will respond, "yes". (some nights i answer no. some nights, like last night, i come home so late he doesn't get to ask the question!)

if i answer yes, his serious little face gets even more so, and he tells me without whinges or ado, "i like it better when you are home and we are all together mummy. it is so cosy when we are a family."

the other three could take lessons from him in the no whinging department, letmetellyou.

however, that's neither here or there.

i tried testing him on the "mummy staying home theory" and said, "sebastian, if i were at home, we could do maths together!" and he smiled and said, "allright, but not all night, mummy."

i do get, well, a cosy, feeling knowing that my kids know when i am in the house and that they care if i am in the flat. on monday i was at bootcamp (why i will never understand, i am still a person of massive proportions), and i came home and showered very quietly afterwards and set about doing some work.

i didn't realise how quiet i had been until around 9.00pm gary knocked on my door and said, "sebastian is crying....he thinks you aren't home yet". i got up, and went into the back area, where sebastian had gone to fetch gary, to announce that his mummy had gotten lost in the storm and could gary please go find me. gary did just that, took 20 steps to my room.

i went to find my little man, who was red eyed and red faced. i picked him up, oh he's so much larger than he used to be, and i carried him to bed. and i thanked him for staying up to make sure i got home safely and i told him how loved he made me feel. (and he does). we prayed and he reiterated that he doesn't like me going out so much at night. or working so much on my computer.

but i do love december. i love the events, seeing old friends, listening and sharing. the food, the music, the stories.

i do need to simplify my life, and i am happy to say that in a few months i can.

but for now, i will pacify my dear son with the reminders that quite a few of the nights out are with him, and they are special nights indeed. that cheers him up considerably.

ps - i am also clever - instead of going out for bookclub tomorrow night, i am having my group over for dinner. that doesn't count as a night out, therefore, does it??

Comments

[Cosy Craving Critter]

Will be home soon...!

[Auntie Pammie]

What a beautiful post! xo